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Oh, happy day! One more week closer to the first trimester being over! The weeks feel like they’re just flying by. I need to make a huge to-do list of things to get done and work on because every time baby girl goes down for a nap, I feel like it’s my nap time too. It doesn’t even matter if I’m tired or not — I take the time to relax. I could be a bit more productive.

I am feeling very, very happy and good. Sometimes very emotional and reactive. I feel like my logic flew out the window and my emotions have completely taken over my body. I cry at the silliest things. We went to see Despicable Me 2 this week and I was crying at a part that wasn’t even really sad or sappy…but I could not help it!

Let’s get to the list!

  • How Far Along: 9 Weeks (according to the doctor’s measurement) / 10 Weeks according to my last cycle
  • Total Weight Gain: Zero gain. I feel like I’ve gained weight. I feel like I look like I’ve gained weight, but the scale says I haven’t. I’m starting to feel like an uncomfortable blob in my clothes.
  • Maternity Clothes:  Well, today D and I went to Kohl’s and Old Navy. I purchased a pair of maternity shorts (they had almost completely sold out of them, so I went ahead and grabbed a pair while they were 50% off). At Old Navy, I purchased a maxi skirt that I think I’ll be able to wear for a long while, but it’s not a maternity skirt. Other than that, nothing else so far.
  • Stretch Marks: Negative.
  • Sleep: I wake up three to four times a night to go to the bathroom. It’s pretty obnoxious, but I know it’s part of the job right now. I’m strongly considering purchasing a pregnancy pillow. I sleep with four pillows right now and can never arrange them just right. I don’t know whether to get the Snoogle or the Boppy pillow. (Does anyone have advice?)
  • Best Moment Last Week: I told another good friend of mine about my pregnancy over dinner on Tuesday night. She and I were eating with a third friend who is weeks away from delivering her baby. It was the best night getting advice and hearing their stories and what they went through. It has been an extreme joy to tell our friends and family in person as we see them or feel comfortable telling them. We’ll still do a Facebook post, too, but face-to-face definitely feels so much more personal and exciting!
  • Miss Anything: My patience. I feel tired and worn down so often that sometimes I need to take a step back and not get frustrated when baby girl does something that babies do — throwing her food over her tray or screaming because she’s in pain over her teeth. I cried in the shower this week because I felt so overwhelmed.
  • Movement: Nuh-uh.
  • Food Cravings: Well, I’m currently snacking on popcorn, something I’ve never really cared to have much in the past.
  • Food Aversions: Not so much aversions as my taste just seems very plain. I want everything pretty flavorless. I saw scrambled eggs this morning that weren’t completely cooked (they still looked a little runny) and I couldn’t look at them.
  • Gender: Don’t know yet. Debating right now whether or not we want to find out.
  • Labor Signs: HA.
  • Symptoms: My symptoms seem so, so mild right now. I am tired, yes, but still stay up late at night. My boobs don’t hurt anymore. I have mild cramping every once in a while. I do get dizzy pretty easily and feel weak if I don’t eat frequently enough. I have had headaches more often lately so I’m trying to up my water intake even more just in case that’s from dehydration. (But I’ve read that can also be from increased blood flow, which also can cause the dizziness.) I go to the bathroom all the time. Oh! And good news — I’m not really having diarrhea issues anymore.
  • Belly Button In or Out: In.
  • Wedding Rings On or Off: On.
  • Happy or Moody Most of the Time: I’m happy and I’m moody. My emotions are a see-saw.
  • Looking Forward To: Our next appointment on July 29th. Taking family pictures this Sunday with baby girl. (Whether or not she becomes a permanent member of our family, we want to document and remember this time of our lives.)

I think I’m going to start working on that to-do list of things to get accomplished so I can stay accountable. Maybe I’ll publish them on here so it will be even more of a responsibility.icon smile Weekly Diary: 9 Weeks

  • July 8, 2013 - 7:55 pm

    fromheretomotherhood - I have a snoogle and it helps a lot. I thought the boppy was for nursing rather than sleeping while pregnant, but it might be good for both.

  • July 15, 2013 - 2:35 pm

    cirquedebaby - I think Boppy is the company’s name. I linked to the pregnancy pillow they make as well. I have heard both pillows are good — I suppose it comes down to personal preference?

Holy moly. We got to see our baby on Monday! How freaking surreal.

Let’s start from the beginning.

My mom spent the night with us Sunday because she offered to help out with our foster daughter during the appointment. Thank goodness she was there with an extra set of arms because baby girl didn’t enjoy the hour and a half wait before we were finally taken back to the patient room. I was so anxious and ready for the appointment. The wait definitely wasn’t enjoyable, but the staff was excellent and kept us up-to-date about what was happening. In the future, I think I’ll NOT schedule my appointments for Mondays since they had so many immediate-attention patients they needed to care for first. (And rightfully so.)

When we got taken back to the room, I was asked to give a urine sample (which I’d already done because my poor bladder couldn’t take the long wait) and weigh myself. The nurse explained how the transvaginal ultrasound was going to go and what to expect. The doctor was still about another 30 minutes behind, but the nurse stayed in our room and we chatted about our foster daughter and her family. (Great, great staff at my new doctor’s office!)

Dr. Cowan came in and was so extremely nice and kind. The nurse introduced everyone in the room by name (all of us — my mom, D, and baby girl) and that impressed me a ton! They turned out the lights and I was situated for the exam. Above me on the wall was a television screen for me to watch the ultrasound. As soon as the baby appeared, I began sobbing. Tears were streaming down my face uncontrollably. The PA held my hand and passed me tissues, and the doctor held my hand after the exam was over and he addressed what to expect in the coming weeks.

Since I found out I was pregnant, I haven’t really cried those tears of joy or excitement. Being pregnant is something I’ve wanted SO badly, but there’s been this huge fear that now that I’m finally pregnant, something will happen and we’ll lose the baby. It’s like I’d been putting up this huge wall from getting too excited. But how could I not be overwhelmed and excited when I actually got to see the little gummy bear. (That’s totally what it looked like.)

The doctor was very happy and said everything is looking great. The baby looks perfectly healthy as of right now! Here’s our first photo of the baby; it’s not really the best photo, but it’s proof there’s a little human in there.

 First Ultrasound   06.24.2013

 

Ultrasound Stats:

Date: June 24, 2013
Measuring: 7 weeks, 3 days (a week behind what all the apps predicted)
Due Date: February 7, 2013 (this is the new, adjusted date)
Heartbeat: 160

I’ve been on cloud 9 since my appointment. I will do another weekly diary this coming weekend, beginning with week 8, since that’s where the doctor thinks I am timewise.icon smile First Ultrasound   06.24.2013

D: Hon, I could really use something sweet right now.

M: What do you have in mind?

D: I really need a Wendy’s frosty.

M: *glare*

D: What? I”m pregnant?!

M: *busts out laughing*

D is certainly taking this whole pregnancy thing to an extreme. This whole conversation happened a) after we discussed taking photos to announce our pregnancy soon and he said that my timeframe didn’t give him time to “lose weight” and b) right after we had eaten the best meal — grilled pork chops, zucchini, salads — and had a long talk about how I want to continue to eat healthy and not give in to cravings because — dang it! I don’t want to gain tons of weight and I want a healthy baby.

This man kills me. Welcome to what I’m going to refer to as Husbandisms from now on. There have already been a few instances like this and I’m sure there will be tons more to come.

I’m a little behind on this week’s post. Every single time I sit down to work on it, I feel like curling up in a ball and going to sleep. How is it that the tiredness seems to jus be increasing? Every time our foster daughter goes down for a long nap, so do I. That’s usually my time to get things done around the house, but HA! – that’s not happening lately. Oh, well.

I’m still feeling really, really great. I’ve continued doing lots of walking, gone for the occasional run with my neighbors, and we’ve spent many a lazy afternoon at our neighborhood pool. (Has every summer felt this hot or am I just having some insane hot flashes?!)

I really feel like I should take out some of the below questions because they’re pointless until I get much further along into my pregnancy, but … I think I would forget to add them back in. Some of these responses will not change until much later.icon smile Weekly Diary: 7 Weeks

  • How Far Along: 7 Weeks
  • Total Weight Gain: Still down in weight. Oddly, I’m feeling so much more comfortable (most days) in my body than I was pre-pregnancy.
  • Maternity Clothes:  Nope. Skirts all the way for me. So c o m f y.
  • Stretch Marks: Nada.
  • Sleep: Still not sleeping the best. I feel so restless and overheated when I sleep. I also have a million pillows to make me comfortable, but nothing seems to help. I’m just going to continue napping when our foster daughter does if I feel the need to because I’m not getting enough sleep at night. I wake up so, so tired and groggy.
  • Best Moment Last Week: Making the decision to swap my OB/GYN. This was probably also the hardest decision because I’m such a loyal person. I kept feeling like my doctor wasn’t really keeping up with what was happening with me, I wasn’t receiving the best care, and was kind of repeating the same things over and over without progressing forward. I cried after I called the new doctor’s office because I felt like I cheated on my doctor, but since then, I’m feeling much more confident about the decision. One of my friends/neighbors delivered with this doctor and has nothing but positive, amazing things to say about him.
  • Miss Anything: Sugar? It seems like every time I have something sweet (which hasn’t been often), my stomach starts to hurt a little bit and I get shaky. Sugar’s not really the best thing for me, so I’m fine with avoiding it, but man. Sour punch straws (strawberry) sound so flipping good.
  • Movement: Nuh-uh.
  • Food Cravings: This week has been the week of wanting carbs. Mashed potatoes or lasagna or pasta — I’ve wanted it all. My mouth waters when I think about those things, but I’ve stayed away from them. They’re not the best type of carbs for me to be having. :-/
  • Food Aversions: When I think of onions, I kind of want to throw up. I think it may be because one of our dogs snuck into our garden his week and ate an onion … only to throw it up a few hours later. Guess who got to clean that mess up? YUCK YUCK YUCK.
  • Gender: Err… still too early.
  • Labor Signs: HA.
  • Symptoms: Boobs still hurt. (Hello, sports bras.) Some slight cramping every now and then. My lower back has been hurting and occasionally I have a sharp pain that goes from my butt down the back of my right leg. A nerve? I’m not sure. I see the chiropractor on Friday and I can’t wait to be adjusted. I’m still having diarrhea problems that most often hit in the middle of the night (thus also disturbing my sleep). No morning sickness. No queasiness, really. There is the random day that I’ll feel super bloated and want to wear stretchy pants (scratch that, those are too hot) athletic shorts with a stretchy waist band. That’s pretty rare though; most days I feel just fine.
  • Belly Button In or Out: In.
  • Wedding Rings On or Off: On.
  • Happy or Moody Most of the Time: Very happy. Not sad or crazy emotional, except for some unexpected bouts with tears every now and then. There has been one time in the last week that I got pretty angry over something and I felt so irrational, but I could not make myself calm down. I felt like what happened was so ridiculous and I wanted to confront the person, but knew it wouldn’t be good if I did. Thank goodness I didn’t act on anything; I am not sure my behavior would have been easily explained.
  • Looking Forward To: Our first appointment is now on June 24th. I’m crazy excited for that. CANNOT WAIT! Really hoping everything is okay and I’m doing well. Not sure if we’re going to get to see the baby via ultrasound, but I HOPE SO. Eeep!

Let’s hope this next week I can be a little more on top of things and keep up with this on time!

  • June 19, 2013 - 4:19 pm

    fromheretomotherhood - Sounds like you already have the recommended habit of sleeping while the baby sleeps down! As for the pain down the leg. I have some of that too and from what I read, a lot of people attribute such pain to sciatica, but it’s apparently more likely to be due to pelvic girdle pain. It’s a normal thing though and for me it has come and gone and only been mildly annoying. Glad to hear everything is going well!

On Father’s Day this past Sunday, D and I had a long conversation as we drove to my grandparent’s house. It hit me like a ton of bricks — something pretty big — that made me feel extremely grateful and thankful for right now. For being pregnant today and maybe not last year. Appreciative of the last year that was so freaking hard and bumpy.

Over the last 18 months to two years, I’ve been to see my OB/GYN so, so much. So many tests were done and so much blood taken to figure out why my periods were irregular. Did I have PCOS? Was there something wrong with me? The tests would show minor things — elevated blood sugar level, but perfectly healthy thyroid numbers. No big indicators. We were told just to wait. Just to give things time.

Ugh. Waiting.

And then this past November, D made an appointment for me with our family physician. He said I was overdue for a physical. I went to the appointment and had lots and lots of blood work done. This time, something new came up. It turns out my Vitamin D and Magnesium levels were super low. Much lower than they should have been. I was advised to begin taking supplements to get them to go up, in addition to going outside for at least 20 minutes a day without any sunscreen on to boost my Vitamin D level more.

Those may seem like two pretty minor things, but in the months since then it’s become more evident how important those levels are. Study after study is showing how Vitamin D deficiencies can lead to birth defects and Down Syndrome. Magnesium deficiencies can lead to preeclampsia or infant mortality. HOW FREAKING SCARY. How unreal that both of those things were low for me.

How amazing that my husband scheduled that physical for me and my physician caught these things. I’m so grateful. SO extremely grateful. That’s not to say that I’m now guaranteed a perfectly healthy baby, of course, but the odds were certainly not in my favor last year. The whole year just felt … exhausting. And now I have this huge sense of peace. I absolutely, without a doubt, feel like God totally had our backs on this one. They say hindsight is 20/20, but man — I feel like my reality check is insanely humbling.

So while many, many times last year I was so uncertain why God was making us wait and I didn’t understand why we weren’t getting pregnant… now I have a better understanding. He is good and he is faithful.