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Weekly Diary: 6 Weeks

I can’t believe an entire week passed. I thought time was going to creep by as I anxiously look forward to our first appointment with my OB/GYN. Every single day, I feel scared, nervous, hopeful, excited… I’m a bundle of emotions when it comes to this baby. I’m praying everything continues to go smoothly and that we get to meet this little person in January or February. Speaking of due dates, I cannot remember if I ever mentioned when mine would me. It fluctuates between January 31st, 2014 and February 1st, 2014 depending on which website I’m looking at. I’ll update the date once I’ve seen my doctor because I’m sure he’ll have a more precise date.

Now, on to the really fun weekly update!

One of my really, really good friends documented her pregnancy each week. I loved seeing how things progressed for her and what was changing so I’m going to attempt to do something similar. I googled around for a few ideas of what to include in these weekly pregnancy diaries. This is my first week filling it out, and gosh, I can’t wait to see what happens over the next 35 weeks!

  • How Far Along: 6 Weeks
  • Total Weight Gain: Still staying steady. This week my scale said I lost 4lbs., but I’ve forgotten each morning to re-weigh myself. For now we’ll just say no weigh gain.
  • Maternity Clothes:  No way, Jose.
  • Stretch Marks: Nada.
  • Sleep: Hmm… not so great some days. As tired as I am, sometimes I just wake up super early and can’t fall back asleep or I have to go to the bathroom a million times so my sleep is very interrupted. Other days, I sleep like I’ve pulled four all-nighters in a row. I still want to take naps, but haven’t really had the chance to lately.
  • Best Moment Last Week: Gosh. We shared the news with some of our close friends who we know will be a great support system to us throughout the pregnancy. Each of their reactions has been fantastic. Honestly, having other women to talk to about aches/pains/hormones/pregnancy symptoms is awesome and so reassuring. I never knew there would be so many twinges that would make me freak out! We also told my Aunt P, who started crying when I told her. She has had one of the absolute best reactions so far.icon smile Weekly Diary: 6 WeeksD also did a really sweet thing yesterday and bought a new quilt for our bedroom that I’ve had my eye on. He said it was my “pregnancy gift.” I asked if I get one of those each month. HA!
  • Miss Anything: Coca-Cola. I love, love having an ice cold coke. I’ve stayed far away from anything caffeine-filled and overly sugary drinks because they’re just not good for me. I can’t say I don’t stare at people drinking a coke with major envy, though.
  • Movement: Nuh-uh.
  • Food Cravings: Veggies, veggies, veggies. I heaped spinach onto my plate tonight for a salad and my mouth was just salivating. I devour my veggies before anything else on my plate. I’m not disgusted by meat or anything, but the vegetables really hit the spot!
  • Food Aversions: I tried twice last week to drink ginger ale with my lunch and each time, just had this nasty taste in my mouth. Either the carbonation or the taste is really putting me off. Some people drink this stuff to feel better and it flips my stomach upside down so far.icon sad Weekly Diary: 6 Weeks
  • Gender: Err… still too early.
  • Labor Signs: HA.
  • Symptoms: My boobs still hurt so. very. badly. Almost all the time. There are some days that my symptoms will completely disappear. No boob pain, no cramping and stretching for the baby to grow, no tiredness. It’s just the weirdest thing, but apparently completely normal. This is disturbing to type, but the one constant has been diarrhea. I’ve had it for 3+ weeks now and the nurse at my OB/GYN said it’s probably the hormones messing with my colon. She recommended I see my family practice doctor. I did so on Friday and she determined I’m eating really healthy right now (!!!) but almost taking in too many veggies and not enough fiber. She wants me to up the fiber and begin taking a probiotic that’s safe during pregnancy. (We discussed some brand names.)
  • Belly Button In or Out: In.
  • Wedding Rings On or Off: On.
  • Happy or Moody Most of the Time: I still feel really great and normal. Probably the most emotional I’ve been was when I was reading a weekly update about how the baby would be changing and growing during week six on the WebMD pregnancy app and I burst into tears. The baby triples in size this week and gets arms, legs, and eyes and ears begin to develop. I am FLOORED that I’m GROWING A HUMAN inside of me. What a blessing. It seems so crazy and so impossible, but yet, I’m in such awe that this is how we reproduce. Other than that, I still cry during TV shows at sappy moments (but this was normal before I got pregnant!).
  • Looking Forward To: Still very much looking forward to our first doctor’s appointment on June 25th, but I’m also just looking forward to each day that I continue to be pregnant. So many women in my secret facebook group through What to Expect have lost their babies. It’s so scary and frightening. I’m just so thankful for everyday this little person gets to grow inside of me.

Whelp, that wraps up this week! Here’s to another week of praying for this baby and for a safe pregnancy.

Knock, Knock…?

This morning, I woke up super tired. Almost angry tired. Last night was a long, long night with our foster daughter. She couldn’t sleep. She was restless because she’s got a tooth coming in. She moved around a lot and whimpered throughout the night. The curse of having a video baby monitor is being able to watch and listen to her. Such scenes can (and do) occur:

D: *shakes me awake*

M: *sleepily looks over at husband*

D: “She’s awake again.” (he’s holding the iPad on his lap, eyeballing it like it’s the most action packed movie he’s ever seen)

M: “Sweetie, she’s okay. Nothing’s wrong. I promise it’s all okay.”

D: “Are you sure?”

M: “Of course. Go back to sleep.” *rolls over and tries to go back to sleep*

D: *shakes me awake again* “She’s still not sleeping.”

M: *gets out of bed to go check on the baby, rocks her back to sleep, puts the baby back in the crib, and the baby immediately resumes crying* “Sweetie, she just has to put herself back to sleep. She’s okay.”

D: *glares at the iPad for a while longer, puts it aside, and begins snoring within seconds*

M: *stares at the ceiling, counts sheep, repeatedly counts to 100, repeats the Lord’s Prayer over and over until falling asleep an hour and a half later*

He bounced out of bed so energized and ready to go this morning. I felt like I was peeling myself from the sheets. AND! He asked me if I wanted to get the baby out of her crib. I gave him the evil eye and told him to let her sleep.

I’m not sure if it’s just because I was feeling so .. meh .. but I didn’t feel many symptoms today. My boobs didn’t really hurt. The cramping was pretty non-existent. I got a wave of energy this afternoon and breezed through all the laundry and cleaned the kitchen (what, what!).

So here comes the confession part. After I showered tonight, I just couldn’t stop thinking about whether or not I’m still pregnant. That’s even worse to type than it is to think. I have had no bleeding or spotting, only this cramping that’s been off and on, but I feel so panicky. I just want to take care of this little pea in side of me, but I feel so helpless — like it’s out of my control. (Sure, I can eat well and get enough sleep and not have caffeine and not smoke and not drink alcohol, but I already take care of myself. I just need to quit fretting.)

Anyway, back to that confession. (Man, I’m good at going off on tangents these days.) I showered and dressed in normal clothes again… and ran to Wal-Greens to purchase more pregnancy tests. I got home, ripped the package open, locked myself in the bathroom, peed on the stick, and yep, it still says I’m pregnant. I’m not really surprised, but I guess I don’t understand why that feels so reassuring to me. It put my mind at ease. I immediately felt more relaxed.

I cannot cannot cannot get in the habit of doing this. What an expensive pregnancy this would be!

June 4, 2013 - 11:37 am

Elaine west - Oh man I thought about doing that because I so don’t feel as bloated as I was. So glad I’m not the only one! Thanks for sharing your blog! Elaine

June 5, 2013 - 12:24 pm

fromheretomotherhood - I definitely had symptoms come and go. They still do at 19 weeks! It’s hard not to worry and I even did ridiculous, superstitious things like play “pedidle” (the car game where you tap the car roof and say “Pedidle!” every time you see a car with one headlight on) and if I got a certain number on my drive, then baby was ok. It made NO sense, but it comforted me. I still can’t help but feel good when I see a “pedidle”.

Also, I completely relate to having a husband who can fall asleep at the drop of a hat whereas I need to put effort into it. It is especially annoying when he has kept me awake.

June 5, 2013 - 5:01 pm

Theresa - I hardly had any symptoms early on. Hang in there;

Weekly Diary: 5 Weeks

One of my really, really good friends documented her pregnancy each week. I loved seeing how things progressed for her and what was changing so I’m going to attempt to do something similar. I googled around for a few ideas of what to include in these weekly pregnancy diaries. This is my first week filling it out, and gosh, I can’t wait to see what happens over the next 35 weeks!

  • How Far Along: 5 Weeks
  • Total Weight Gain: Nothing yet! (yay!)
  • Maternity Clothes:  Nope. I’m hoping to make it as long as possible wearing what I own.
  • Stretch Marks: Nope.
  • Sleep: I want to take frequent naps throughout the day. I feel zapped of energy. I feel myself wanting to go to bed around 9PM even though that’s much earlier than I’ve ever gone to bed. I yawn all the time! I fall asleep quickly when I go to bed, and wake up feeling like I slept like a brick.
  • Best Moment Last Week: Well, we just found out so I guess that would have to be the answer. I still feel extremely shocked and crazy nervous. There are so many weeks to come before we’re even out of the scary zone. I took another pregnancy test yesterday, Wednesday, just to make sure it still said positive!
  • Miss Anything: Not particularly. I do feel like I’m trying to cut way back on carbohydrates and be extremely careful with what I eat. I also feel like I can’t talk to my friends candidly because I want so badly to tell them the news, but I am also very conscious of how early it is.
  • Movement: Nope, none! It’s way too early for that!
  • Food Cravings: I’m so, so thirsty. I feel like I constantly need water by my side. I haven’t really had any cravings, but have moreso just felt like I don’t really want to eat.
  • Food Aversions: As I mentioned, I’m just not super hungry. I didn’t like the taste of apples tonight, but it didn’t make me want to run to the bathroom or anything.
  • Gender: No idea yet. It’s the size of a poppyseed!
  • Labor Signs: No way, Jose. I’d be scared if there were.
  • Symptoms: Definitely feeling tired. My boobs hurt so bad, though luckily, the pain isn’t constant. It seems to be worse at night. I feel crampy, still, but that’s also lessening. My sense of smell seems to be getting stronger. I walked into our house last night and said something smelled like “wet dog” (we do have two adorable little dogs), but it was just D seasoning some chicken for dinner. Yum?
  • Belly Button In or Out: In!
  • Wedding Rings On or Off: On!
  • Happy or Moody Most of the Time: I actually feel more hormonally balanced; I feel like I’m just skipping through each day. Maybe my hormones haven’t started raging yet. (Is it possible for me to be more balanced now than I was before?)
  • Looking Forward To: My first doctor’s appointment on June 25th. It seems so, so far away. It also seems like D and I just have a barrage of things we need to discuss — do we want to stick with my OB/GYN or find someone at one of the hospitals closer to us? Do we want to deliver at a hospital with a doctor or a midwife? (Am I brave enough to even consider a midwife?)
June 3, 2013 - 11:00 am

fromheretomotherhood - I felt much happier and calmer when I found out I was pregnant too. I think that it comes partly from the relief that my worse fears (never getting pregnant) weren’t coming true and the pure elation that something I wanted so badly had finally happened.

Love the new background by the way :)

Well, I’m Back… And ….

I’ve been absent. Since October. Yes, yes, I know that’s an incredibly long amount of time, but wow — I needed that mental break. I was getting so caught up in all the emotions of trying to have a baby and that led me to other blogs where they were going through insane infertility treatments. I just got so down and so sad. I had to step away. If I hadn’t things would have gotten even more depressing for me.

Here’s what’s happened over the last few months.

  • In January, we completed our home study for foster care.
  • In February, we signed the licensing paperwork. (YAY! HALLELUJAH!)
  • In March, we began receiving phone calls for placements and emails for kids who were up for adoption (or were likely to be). We missed out on a few calls that really broke my heart, one in particular for a 22 day old baby.
  • I decided to take a step back from work and reschedule some things to give myself time to breathe. It was apparent to me that the placement process was going to be an emotional roller coaster.
  • The day after I cleared my schedule, we got a phone call about a 7 month old baby girl who had just been taken out of her home. I cannot share any details at all, but an hour later, she was placed in our home.
  • We’ve been loving on this baby girl so much; we’ve completely fallen in love and it’s been very up and down for me, emotionally, because I would adopt her in a heartbeat. It doesn’t seem like that will be the case, but for now, we’re trying to accept that we’re giving her what she needs — a good, stable home and loving parents.
  • Throughout the whole actual fostering process, we’ve continued to TTC. We’ve tracked ovulation and after April, D said he was ready to go back to my doctor to discuss fertility treatments. He was tested back in December and all of his numbers came back a-okay. I was beginning to fret that there was something going on with my body. In February (I believe — the dates are getting confusing looking back), I had the HSG X-ray done which was hell on earth. One of the most painful things I have ever experienced. I learned that I have an arcuate uterus.
  • We had an appointment with my doctor mid-May about clomid and after much discussion, got the prescription for it. I had it filled right away since we were going on vacation and I had already missed the time frame for beginning it for the month of May. I didn’t want to leave home and not be prepared.
  • While we were on vacation, in the mountains of Colorado, I began feeling strange things. I was super duper overly tired — but that was easily explained because baby girl was waking up 4 or 5 times a night instead of sleeping her normal 12 hours straight through the night. (Ugh.) My boobs were hurting, but if you read through previous posts on here, you’ll see that was very normal — it happens with every visit from Aunt Flo. On our drive home, I got really car sick. Had to sleep a lot of the way home because I just couldn’t shake it.

We got home this past Sunday, the 26th, and I was at day 29. I started my period last month at day 29. I just knew it was going to come. I felt so absolutely positive that it was. But Sunday came and went. I chalked it up to being stressed out during our trip because I didn’t want baby to have a rough time, for my family to feel annoyed if there was an upset baby — maybe I had just stressed myself out and the period wasn’t there yet. Or maybe my Metformin wasn’t working it’s magic this month? Monday, Memorial Day, came and we did a little backyard grilling with some of our neighbors. My boobs continued to ache throughout the day. I felt bloated and uncomfortable, but again, absolutely nothing out of the ordinary. Where, oh where, was my period?

Monday night, around 10PM, I approached my husband who was already snuggling up in bed for the evening. I said, “Do you want to know or do you want to continue to wait?” He said, “Ok, take the test. I just want to know. Is it too early?” We did some magical googling to find out what my odds were of getting a clear answer, and we saw that I should be in the clear for a pretty definite answer. Always the over-tester, I had a pack of tests on hand. I went to our guest bathroom, which is near where baby girl sleeps, and peed on the stick. (I felt so awkward doing it right in front of my husband, and didn’t want him to see me have an emotional breakdown if it came back negative. Again.) SECONDS into taking the test, both lines appeared. Very, very clear and definitive yes.

WE ARE PREGNANT!

I left the bathroom with my pants around my ankles screaming, “D!!!!!!! D!!!!!!! WE’RE PREGNANT. THE TEST IS POSITIVE!” And I’m shaking. Just positively shaking and cannot believe it’s real. I’m jumping up and down while he’s trying to embrace me in a hug, meanwhile also reminding me to be quiet because we have a sleeping baby in the nearby bedroom that we don’t want to wake. I didn’t even care if she woke up. I would have probably told her the good news (even though she wouldn’t have understood what I meant. After all these months, we were so shocked to have gotten our first ever positive pregnancy test. HOLY MOLY WE’RE PREGNANT.

We briefly contemplated whether or not to tell anyone right away. By our amazing google calculations, we were at 4 weeks and 4 days. Very, very early in the pregnancy.

But we just couldn’t wait to tell our parents.

So we called my mom and dad. My mom wouldn’t answer her phone. I called over and over. I tried my dad’s cell phone and he didn’t answer. I then texted my mom, “CALL ME NOW. IMPORTANT.” When she answered, finally, I asked her if they could face time with us. It took a little while to connect, meanwhile D and I were sitting on pins and needles about to burst out with the news. When I saw my mom’s face (she was in bed, too, for the evening), I asked her to get my dad. He was next to her snoring away. I told her she had to wake him because it was important. She shook him awake (he’s a very deep sleeper!) and they snuggled their heads together to listen to us. We showed them the pregnancy test and my mom and dad were just ecstatic. Lots of happy squeals and tons of questions and mentions of hoping we can keep baby girl, too, and how that would just be perfect. My mom hadn’t been feeling well all day, but she perked right up and said she wouldn’t be able to sleep. We told them they weren’t allowed to tell anyone. (I know, how terrible of us!)

After we got off the phone with them, D’s dad called by chance. He doesn’t have an iphone so D said we would call them right back on his mom’s phone. We did and then got them to face time with us as well. As soon as we were connected, D’s dad said, “I know why you’re calling.” He guessed what was happening and said he just had this gut feeling. They were so, so happy and overjoyed! Lots of laughing and them telling us how proud they are of us. Meanwhile we’re still shaking and cannot believe we’re getting to share the news.

We knew there were two more people who had to know before we went to bed. Before I had taken the test, I spent an hour on the phone with my SIL, L. She and I talked and talked about our vacation and the happenings in their lives recently. (All great, positive, lovely things!) I knew that D’s parents would be coming to visit the next day and I didn’t want it to be awkward at all if my BIL and SIL didn’t know. We wanted to be the ones to tell them. So I called her back and asked them to face time. Best reactions ever when we told them the news. My SIL was so excited and overwhelmed with joy for us. We just couldn’t even put our shock into words and their excitement just really made everything so real for us.

They were our last phone call for the evening. We vowed we weren’t really going to tell anyone else until weeks had passed and we were close to the end of the first trimester. (Oh, what a long, long wait we have ahead!) As we laid down in bed, our hearts were racing and we both kept telling one another, “There’s no way I can sleep now…” or “Maybe we should have waited until the morning to take the test so we could sleep…”

I woke up the next morning from the deepest sleep. I’m pretty sure I must have snored. Since Monday, my symptoms have continued to be sore boobs and being very, very tired. When baby girl takes a nap, so does Momma! It’s only fair, right? Today, a few new things kicked in. My lower back started hurting a bit. Nothing painful and it was just occasional. My sense of smell also almost knocked me off my feet this evening. D was seasoning chicken for dinner and all I could think was, “Where’s the wet dog?” It just smelled horrendous! I looked around for our dogs and was going to shoo them out of the house, but they were already in the back yard. The chicken just … ugh, yuck … smelled so, so bad. (And yes, it’s fresh — I purchased it yesterday from the grocery store!) I haven’t had aversions to the way things look, but maybe the smell will be the tough thing coming up.

I’ve had no morning sickness or feelings of wanting to vomit yet, though I have heard that usually kicks in around week 6. I’ve been crampy, but a different type of crampy than when I get my period. It almost feels like puzzle pieces are being shifted, ever so slowly, into place down there. Nothing is painful and it doesn’t hurt — there’s no need for me to even want to take a pain reliever — but it’s definitely a symptom.

I did take another pregnancy test today. There wasn’t really a reason to, but alas, I had an extra! It came back positive right away. The scariest thing right now is whether or not this little poppy seed will make it. I’m praying fiercely. I’m hoping so badly that this is it. But I’m also just so thankful to be going through this because OH MY GOSH WE ARE PREGNANT. We got pregnant without the fertility drugs! That is a huge deal.

My doctor’s office won’t see me until I’m at least 8 weeks along. I have my first doctor’s appointment on June 25th. I’m not one for really wanting to fast-forward time, but today, I wish I had a magic remote that would let us breeze through these next few weeks. I feel so incredibly happy. Floating on cloud one million and nine. I cannot believe it’s real.

Aside from a minor freakout this afternoon when D was driving me mad by dirtying up everything in the house I had just cleaned, I have felt like my hormones have been more normal than non-pregnancy me. Is that even possible? I don’t think D believed me when I was threatening to leave the house for a break when his messes were really getting the best of me.

I guess we’ll see what happens …

May 30, 2013 - 12:29 am

Mrs B - Congratulations! That’s amazing news! Hope things go well with both the pregnancy and the fostering xx

May 30, 2013 - 2:57 pm

fromheretomotherhood - OMG this is such amazing news! I was so excited for you reading this. The anticipation was building and I had to fight not to skip ahead when I saw where the post was likely headed. A pregnancy or child by any means is amazing, but I know what it’s like when you think you’re headed for treatment (it was IVF in my case) and then a natural pregnancy takes you by wondrous surprise! I am also excited that you are currently (and hopefully for a long time to come) caring for the precious little girl you’ve been entrusted with. I hope that your happy ending is well on its way and that the rest of your pregnancy will be easy, healthy, and happy.

May 30, 2013 - 9:47 pm

cirquedebaby - Thank you, thank you! I really hope there’s a happy ending too, but I am feeling so nervous. I thought when I found out I was pregnant, I would be so overjoyed and spill the beans right away because I’m not very good at keeping things from people. It hasn’t been as hard as I thought though! Again, thank you so much for your sweet, sweet comment! :)

May 30, 2013 - 9:48 pm

cirquedebaby - Mrs B — thank you so much! I’m floored; it feels like we’ve been waiting and waiting and now I’m just shocked! Hahah!

Austin Maternity and Family Photographer — More Updates!

I hope your week is off to a great start so far! I’m back with a few more family sessions from the end of last year! Prepare yourself for the adorableness!

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My lovely family is up first! Derryk is my husband Dustyn’s brother. Leslie and I have been BFFs since I was a wee little kid. We grew up together! These are their amazing kiddos, A + H, who you’ve surely seen quite a bit of around here. Our session was in a field and we were celebrating the official adoption of these two little cuties. There’s nothing that makes my heart happier than these guys. We had a relaxing evening, just playing and frolicking (ha, ha) in the grass. Little H was fearless and didn’t mind that the grass was almost as tall as her. A took a little longer to let loose and be silly, but when he did, it was on!

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And now we’re going to focus on two of my favorite people who just yesterday became first-time parents to twins! Congratulations, Christine and Michael! Christine had… not the easiest pregnancy (this is putting it lightly, y’all) … but judging by her maternity session, you’d never guess she was in any discomfort. She’s a trooper! We had *such* a beautiful evening with lovely weather and it was just so, so good to be able to photograph my friends. I’m beyond excited to see them venture into this new stage of life and I loved hearing about their plans for the babies and what they were going to do next with the baby rooms. (Have I mentioned how excited I am to go meet the babies?!)

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Ok, so that was a lot of photos! I’ll share another post soon! I don’t want to crash your browsers! Have a fantastic week, friends!

Magan is an Austin Maternity and Family Photographer specializing in relaxed, non-traditional children and family portraits. Email Magan to schedule your fall portrait session.

January 15, 2013 - 9:58 am

Leah Muse - Man, I love that group of portraits of Christine.. she looks so happy and content!

January 18, 2013 - 3:44 pm

Christine - Thank you so much for your sweet comments! I love all the pictures, you did such a fantastic job!

March 19, 2013 - 10:18 pm

Anna Sargeant - Ugh. A + H are so adorable! Seeing these pictures should makes my heart melt. :-)